I haven’t written a blog in such a long time and it wasn’t that I didn’t have the time to write silly things in this page of mine, I simply chose not to. I personally believe that being “busy” is just an excuse for so many people not to do other things they may want to do like pursuing a hobby, checking that new place out, or simply catching up with an old friend. Really, it’s not that we don’t have the time, it’s that we don’t MAKE the time.
Some of you may already be rolling your eyes and I know, I’m not exactly the poster child for making things happen. I’ve felt my life has come stagnant for the past 2 years and I only have myself to blame: I let myself become this drifting, soul-searching, clueless girl I swear I wasn’t going to be but here I am now, 24 (turning 25) and I still haven’t figured out stuff yet. Maybe it’s cause of the messy relationship stuff that has happened to me over the past 2 years, maybe because the cause / advocacy I stood for for years turned out to be such a joke or maybe it’s that lingering resentment I have that started 5 years ago when I graduated and discovered the “real world” is much more different than life at college. There are lots of maybes, and a lot of possibilities.
I’ve always been the person who has to get motivated by something, and working towards that something makes me feel like my life has purpose; that I’m not just some slab of meat stealing oxygen away from everyone else. What I’ve come to realize though, and ironically what I’ve advised people but I never seem to follow, is that you’ve gotta be your own motivation, not something or someone else. Things don’t come “when they’re supposed to come”, they do when you work your ass off and drag that sh*t and make it come to you. Opportunities don’t spring out of thin air, we build them ourselves with either hard work or if you’re lucky, something else (whatever that may be) but I’m sure as hell they don’t just spring out if you do nothing. And if you’re just looking or waiting for some “spark” to ignite you and get yourself going towards that next big thing, go and light yourself on fire. In the end, we’re the ones responsible for our own lives, and we’re the ones responsible for moving ourselves forward.
Stop making excuses that you’re “busy” or your life’s so difficult cause really, whose isn’t? It’s time to get your ass off and actually start doing things; and yes, this very much applies for me too.